Its been awhile.

If "Leslie Davis" were an entry in a Thesaurus, it would have the words "indecision, unstable, driven, intelligent, naive, gullible, contradiction" following it.

I have switched jobs again after working in Portland for almost two months. While most of me is excited to remain room mates with Krista, a small part of me wonders if this is a failure. Is Salem really where I am meant to be? I feel as though it is this sucking force that no matter how hard I try to pull away from it, I always remain right back where I started. My heart feels as though Salem is where I want to be, but the dreamer within me says "bullshit".

This job in Salem is better pay, closer to those I love, and gives me the opportunity to fully invest myself in the Chamber and Salem Alliance. I am sad to say that my relationship with God has seemed to take a backseat since I have been commuting and couch surfing. He will take priority. I am joining a small group and I hope that I can get back to where I was a year ago today.

My biggest fear is that I investing time, energy and emotions into a relationship with someone who might not be heading in the same direction I am. I always had four different directions I wanted to take my life in (still do) and had the plans lined out on how to do each one. When I talk to Kaleb about what he wants to do, he has no idea. Not an inkling. Kaleb and I are so different. Yet, I can't imagine not having him near me. He makes me laugh and takes such good care of me. I feel at home with him and while this is all fine and dandy, I don't want to end up with someone without a degree or direction. Direction without a degree is one thing, but an absence of both is dangerous.

On a bright note, I get to live in a town with my sister, brother and nephew babies in addition to Nicole, Krista and all the other lovely people I have met in Salem.

Great things can be done wherever you reside because the drive lies in the person, not their location... right? Right.